PRIDE IN LOVE BY MARY ACHOR

Ever feel like you're doing the absolute wrong thing with the absolute right person at a really confusing time?? Crazy yeah??, Well welcome to my world.

Love makes up a big part of me and I've realised it controls most things I do. I may be totally pissed at someone, not because they did me wrong or anything but simply because they didn't reply my text in a certain way or wave in a particular manner, that's how deep it gets with me. So instead of acting out my "craze" I channel it to writings.

This particular piece was prompted by my "love" for a particular young man. Yes! A girl's gonna be a girl right? Thing is, he probably has no idea how much he means to me and we've been friends like what...four years?

And you know Africans and our absurd belief that the guy does "everything" first from phone calls to saying feelings. Sad!

Well for me, in one word, it's "pride". I mean common, what's the guarantee he isn't shy? Or afraid you'd turn him down?? Or even intimidated by you??? What's the worst that could happen?

"Don't be afraid of rejection. The fear alone hinders you from achieving a lot. The fear of rejection would never let you know what Mom would have definitely said 'YES' to" -Mae 

Moving on. Anyway, this "pride" almost made me loose a great guy. It became obvious to me that after all the four  years of arguing regularly, waiting for him to apologise, waiting for him to call and all that crap... I was letting him slip away. I decided to put myself in his shoes and ask myself a few questions and frankly, someone who didn't care about me much wouldn't have endured half what he did from me.

So instead of letting this "pride" deprive me of a great guy and friend... I said something. We aren't dating still by the way, but I'm grateful we made it to this point. Turns out he did feel the same way about me (at least he said so....lol). But our friendship grows stronger and gets better and for me, it's a lot.

"What's a good 'RELATIONSHIP' without a great 'FRIENDSHIP' ? -Mae.