I Wished I Told Her How I Felt ( A Narrative Poem) By Idris Adigun

1st year(In university)

I was sitting in the lecture room, looking at the girl sitting next to me. She was my ‘best friend’. She had nice hair, humble and was very beautiful. I wish I could tell her that I loved her so much, but I didn’t want to break the bond. After lectures, she walked to me, borrowed some notes of the previous class hugged and pecked me goodbye.

I wish I told her, I wish she knew
That I wanted us to be more than just friends.
I loved her, but I was shy.
I didn’t know why.

2nd year

My phone rang, it was her. She called me to tell me how much she was hurt. Her boyfriend just broke her heart. She asked me to go keep her company. I went to see her; because she was my best friend. As I sat next to her, I looked her in her eyes, wishing she was mine. After two hours of having fun and hanging out, she was okay. So I left her to go to bed. Before I left, she looked me in the eye with a beautiful smile, hugged me goodbye.

I wish I told her, I wish she knew
That I wanted us to be more than just friends.
I loved her, but I was shy.
I didn’t know why.

3rd year

One day, before the grand school end of the year party, she asked me to accompany her to the school dance. I was very happy, because every moment with her was special. But we went to the party as 'just friends’. After the party, I sat at the door. I looked at her, as she chatted with her friends. She happened to look at me, and then gave me that killer smile.

I wish I told her, I wish she knew
That I wanted us to be more than just friends.
I loved her, but I was shy.
I didn’t know why.

Graduation day

Days, weeks, months passed. It was the graduation day, so happy and excited we had completed our studies. She stood up, to go pick her certificate. As she walked elegantly, I couldn’t stop staring at her. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn’t notice me like that. Before she left, she came with her graduation gown, looked at me, gave me a smile and told me, ‘you are forever my best friend’

I wish I told her, I wish she knew
That I wanted us to be more than just friends.
I loved her, but I was shy.
I didn’t know why.

Wedding day

3 years down the line, in the church, she walks down the aisle, with her parents by her side.

It really hurts me, since my chance is now gone. I love her too much, but I got to let her go. She is being married to another man.

I wanted her to be mine, but she didn’t see me like that. But as she walked she looked at me and gave me that killer smile. Whispered to me “BEST FRIEND EVER”

I wish I told her, I wish she knew
That I wanted us to be more than just friends.
I loved her, but I was shy.
I didn't know why.

Burial day

Days, months, years passed. 5 years later, I went to mourn the love of my life. The love I was afraid to tell. As I viewed her lain body, it hurt me that she left without knowing I loved her.

During the service, they read her diary. The MC began:

‘I stare at him; I would love to have him in my life. I try to simulate situations, but he doesn’t seem to notice
me.’ I love him, I wish he knew. I would really want us to be more than just friends. I love him but am shy to say. I don’t know why.

My strength was over, I Knelt before the crowd, as tears dropped down my chicks. Those words touched me deeply. I wish I told her. But its now too late, she is gone.

I wish I told her, I wish she knew
That I wanted us to be more than just friends.
I loved her, but I was shy.
I didn’t know why.

BREAK THE SILENCE> IF YOU LOVE SOMEONE; TELL THEM!!

Composed by Idris Adigun
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